Some days I just fail. Like today, for example. Impatient, snappy, tired. Add onto that, the amount of Braxton Hicks I've had leads me to believe they are straight from the Devil.
Today is not one of my shining moments.
While talking to Daniel this morning he asked how I was doing, and my answer to him at 10:30 was: "Shouldn't this day be over already?"
My kids deserve so much better than they are getting from me today. I'm digging deep, but it's just not deep enough. Sweet Judah asks me: "Okay, Mama?" I love that boy. But today I'm really not okay. Maybe tomorrow.
And Eve wonders why I keep talking to myself. But, I'm just praying. Praying for patience, for grace, for wisdom. And maybe reminding God just how done I am with being pregnant.
We all fail, don't we? We all have some days that just rot. We become the mothers or perhaps friends that we loathe. But God's grace is new every morning, He doesn't stop loving me because I'm acting ugly. Even though I seem to take those feeling upon myself, they are not true.
So, I'm going stand up, brush myself off and hope to have a great evening with my kids and husband. Perhaps tomorrow I will be okay - all day.
Today is not one of my shining moments.
While talking to Daniel this morning he asked how I was doing, and my answer to him at 10:30 was: "Shouldn't this day be over already?"
My kids deserve so much better than they are getting from me today. I'm digging deep, but it's just not deep enough. Sweet Judah asks me: "Okay, Mama?" I love that boy. But today I'm really not okay. Maybe tomorrow.
And Eve wonders why I keep talking to myself. But, I'm just praying. Praying for patience, for grace, for wisdom. And maybe reminding God just how done I am with being pregnant.
We all fail, don't we? We all have some days that just rot. We become the mothers or perhaps friends that we loathe. But God's grace is new every morning, He doesn't stop loving me because I'm acting ugly. Even though I seem to take those feeling upon myself, they are not true.
So, I'm going stand up, brush myself off and hope to have a great evening with my kids and husband. Perhaps tomorrow I will be okay - all day.
19 Comments:
Amen sister! :)
Will pray with you as well that you enjoy these last few weeks with your little family of four before life changes again. Hang in there!
Once again, I feel like we're twins. I'm over being pregnant, and spend most of the day trying to remind God of that fact...So far, He seems to feel she's fine where she is!
Oh Andrea...I hope your day has improved! I hope you have a wonderful evening with Daniel, Eve and Judah!
We all have those days pregnant or not. We are all also entitled to these days every now & then. I hope you have a wonderful evening & a better tomorrow(=
Praying you have a wonderful evening with your sweet family, Andrea.
Hugs,
Eden
Eek! I had this day yesterday. Maybe it's the time difference?? Except, I acted this way at our church's staff meeting. See Pastor Bobby's blog today http://www.bobbylepinay.com
I'm sure he wasn't talking about me but the Holy Spirit always seems to be right on top of me when I act the fool...
It will be okay...your pregnant and have to little ones at home. This will pass. Everyone has bad days. You will look back on this and laugh one day if you even remember it. Take a deep breath.....life is really good Andrea......I'm praying for you hon.
I'm sorry you're feeling rotton - but yes, we all have those days. I hope tomorrow treats you better!
We definitely all fail sometimes. God has to keep us humble. I'll be praying that tonight and tomorrow are much better than your morning was.
While my reasons may be a bit different for having a rough day - I'm in the same boat. I feel like I'm failing my daughter and husband because I just cannot hold it together and act like a nice mommy some days. Why is it that pregnancy hormones sometimes make us act like the people we don't like? Thanks for the reminder that God's grace is new every day.
I felt the same way today. I went out and bought my two children two webkinz. I was just moody but not because of pregancy which is a justifiable but because of PMS which is just grr. HEHEHE You sound like a good mom. Smile soon enough you will have the baby and life will get back to "normal" if there really ever is such a thing.
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We named our daughter Chloe Grace. Her middle name is esepcially significant to me in my life. I've made some pretty huge mistakes in my life, along with a million minor ones, but God's grace is always there to keep me going. On her birth annoucement, I included the verse, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." So in our shortcomings, God's grace can be seen. I hope this is a legacy I can pass on to her.
Anyway, you sound like such an amazing mom. I'm sure your children can see God's grace shining through in you.
Good Morning!!!!
I hope you had a wonderful night sleep and like the view all the white stuff on the ground :) It's actually pretty warm outside.
I hope your feeling better thismorning and look forward to seeing you today.
i TOTALLY know how you feel! I have those days too and i hate it! i hate feeling that way! Plus...at the end of a pregnancy is really difficult! Hang in there! God's going to bring out that perfect little one soon!!! I hope today turns into a wonderful day for you and many blessings flow from it right to you!!! xoxo
Thanks for your openness in your post. Isn't it wonderful that not only God, but your family will extend grace to you as well. I'm sure your children have already forgotten.
I hope today is better so far. Will be praying for you through this season of change!
First off, I have never done this before, but after reading your post I wanted to respond and say Thank You. Thank you for being real and in encouraging yourself, encouraging others. Parenting is hard. Lately, I feel like I am totally at the end of myself especially with Devonta. But then I think...isn't that where we are supposed to be so that we realize that we have to ask God to intervene, because it is only with him that we can really do the job. I feel like this has been my plea lately that God would just show up in awesome ways with Devonta. Thanks for your honesty.
Oh... how I remember those last few weeks of pregnancy like it was yesterday. It's such a time full of emotion. I'll pray for you.
I hope today was a better day... I was having a hard day yesterday too.
Oh girl--your post lately are making me cry. I haven't blogged all week because I had three (well, two & a half) days in a row like that! Even so, I feel like I'm the only one who screws up...
I was just thinking, I'm so excited to 'meet' your baby & see how you're doing, adjusting to three, as I still have 8 long months to watch & learn, & then I thought, you're so much 'better' than I, reading you would probably just give me a complex.
If you understood that at all, it's totally meant to be a compliment!
oh yes we all fail! thank you for your honesty in this post; I've had days like that too - snappy, short and irritable with Kayla and it's not her fault. Of course I feel guilty about it. But you're right, just dust ourselves off and have a better day the next day!
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